Today I get told that I’m not getting the hours I was promised. Perfect, that’s exactly what I wanted to hear. I also find out that because of my co-workers completely retarded remarks to my district manager, that not only is his job in jeopardy, but the rest of the guys I work with. I don’t want anyone to get fired, because I know we all mean well, but at the same time, there are some people that just aren’t doing their job. My boss doesn’t do his paperwork like he should, so we’ve got almost 3 weeks worth of paperwork backed up on his desk right now. My paint guy just doesn’t get why he has to be organized. I’ve tried and tried to get him to realize it but it just goes in one ear and out the other. I like Dan as a person, but as a paint guy he just royally sucks. It’s bad enough when I have to deal with customers telling me that mixes are coming out wrong and what not, but when I see things that are just unbelievable even to me, I can’t help but wonder if I should of just stayed where I was. For one thing I’d at least know that I’d be more financially secure. I hate the fact that half of my customers are just getting pissed beyond belief at the fact that everything I’ve worked out in the last year has all gone to shit pretty much.
I get the feeling that after the inventory that some people at the store aren’t gonna be there anymore. I hate to see it happen but there’s no denying it anymore. Dennis will more than likely get fired, and If he doesn’t then at our store meeting he’s sure as hell gonna get an ear full from me. If Dan’s job depends on him being on time……….well then he’s gone. The guy hasn’t ever been on time, literally since he started. He was always 10-15 minutes late. I can’t make up an excuse for that. Alan is just fed up. James just came in at the wrong time, and Brad is a fuckin space cadet.
The only three people that even care about that store anymore are me and my two drivers, and thats just wrong. I’ve been there almost 5 and a half years…..been through 4 managers, 2 assistant managers, and more employees than I can even remember. And even after all the bullshit that I’ve had to put up with over all of that time…..I still care about that job. Maybe its because I’m holding onto it because it was my first real fulfilling job….maybe its because I know I need it right now…….maybe its because to me ……I can manage it better and finally see it get back to the way it was when chris and dave were there……..I just remember everything being much smoother then.
I just think that I can do it better if I was ever given the chance….
So if it comes down to it…….and they do offer me the store……or hell even assistant……..give me a little more money………….and I’d give it a shot……………and If I failed at it it’d be because I didn’t try hard enough…….because I know that I could do a much better job coming from an employee and watching a lazy boss…….knowing what would piss my guys off……keeping them wanting to work there……..It really is hard to believe that after all this time I still care as much as I do…………..I could do it……..I’m confident in that fact………and I think if it comes up I’m finally gonna do it……throw myself out there and see how it goes………they already know that I’d work my ass off for it……………So we’ll see……
Oh yeah, one more thing…..”…….I am William Control…………and I do not want you to like me….”